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I think the worst thing about having a big secret, is that people always find out, always.

When push comes to shove, i've done a lot of things in my life that i shouldn't have, but this was something much bigger, much bigger than me or anyone else in my life. I will never look back and think "good decision", i will never ever. Because in reality, i despise every part of my being for what i did. I hate it. And now people, even if it is only a few know, it's not right. And although people sympathise, you can't understand it. I don't want to sound ungrateful, but nothing anyone says can make that better. There's no way doing it. Every day, you see constant reminders of it. And i am sickened to my stomach. Want my advice? Seriously think about what that next step that you're taking is going to do to your life.

Lets have a coffee and a catch up.

It's 00:49 on the 23rd of July.

In roughly 12 day and around 6 and a half hours i will receive my exam results. SHOCKA. Two B's to get into Aberdeen, one B to get into Stirling. EEP. Fingers crossed for all that malarky. If i don't get in i'll travel and see the world. Might even still defer my place and do that. Who knows eh?

Happily in love. FUCK DA HATERZ! He makes me a better person and never fails to make me smile. Job done.

My friends are all over the shop. I love them. Not all of them are all quite right, but hey ho, neither am i! BOOYA.

My medication is slightly problematic, but not enough to stop me BABEH! I get tired and my emotions go sky hiiiiiiigh, but what of it?! Things could be a lot worse.

All round things are pretty good, nothing's ever perfect. But that doesn;t mean there's not always a bright side. Love ya's.

No matter what...

My friends are the most important thing in my life and i will back them no matter what. Nothing means more to me. No bitches sly comments will ever stop me. My friends are the best. No discussions about it.

one seven

Seventeen baby!

Look out for me on the roads!

The big one.

Two days time, it'll have been a year. Still find it cute that it was on new years. We've had our ups and downs through the year, but we love each other, and we got through them.

I'm not scared to say i love him even though i'm supposedly too young to feel such strong feelings. Because like they say "when you know, you know!"

I light up when i see him and i know that no matter what, i can go to him with anything.

Stefan Brzeski. You are my superstar.

When you were battling against your illness at such a young age, you were always smiling and keeping us cheery. You give me hope.

We miss you buddy.

Password.

I love my password, it's like two years old and reminds me of old times. Person in question may not mean much now but they did at the time and that's what it's all about isn't it?

I was gonna make a new one but what's the point? 1) I'll just end up forgetting it. and 2) i'm not sad or upset about that part of my life, it was fun.

So to that person, i'll always have a wee soft spot for you, and this will always remind me of that.